Skip to main content

In Remembrance


I've been sitting here in front of my laptop, determined to write a blog post. I have my schedule of blog posts in my weekly planner, and for a very good reason, I don't feel like writing about today's scheduled topic. I'll save it for later. At some point, staring out into space and pretending as though I'm somewhere else will not end in productivity, so I must find something else to write about. Something with substance.

What I do feel like writing about right now is hope.

Back in the good ole days of 2010 and 2011, when I really started to dive into blogging and YouTube, I created a blog called Insights. It was a place for eclectic writings and any random musings I cared to explore. Eventually, it evolved into writings about a spiritual journey I was on. I talked about relentlessly seeking joy and finding happiness and beauty in everything. Sound somewhat familiar? BDV is all about finding the beauty in life - it was really birthed from Insights.

The blog still exists and I found myself re-reading some of my old words, finding messages of hope everywhere. I am Christian, so I've written from a spiritual understanding of my faith and my walk with God.  I occasionally read back and find little nuggets of wisdom that I didn't remember saying or writing. It has since been abandoned, but like a stone building, it has withstood some weathered times and provides refuge from the storms.

Tonight, I needed encouragement. My heart hurts and there's nothing I can do to alleviate it. I am grieving for something that I have no control over.  It's a natural thing to do... but my pain and hopelessness feel close to drowning me. Reading back through my words, I feel comfort as I find familiarity in the words I once typed come back to remembrance. It's fresh in my mind, and I'm reminded of the steadfast heart, courage, and strengthened spirit I had as a younger person. I found her again.

If you are feeling hopeless, I hope that if you look back to a time where you felt safe and strong and pull that into your existing life. All the crap you've gone through was hard, so this current challenge that you're facing? Well, this is a piece of cake. You can keep going, so do. Believe - if not in a higher power, than in yourself.

So much love and strength to you all in your journeys.

Em

Popular posts from this blog

Blossoms & Light : A Pastel Photoshoot

How glorious are the delicate blossoms that sprout in the springtime? It is my most favorite thing about the arrival of springtime - the little pops of pink and white littering residential roads with tiny pastel petals after a gusty wind flow. 
A few weeks ago, inspiration sprung up at me while admiring the poppy pink trees on a drive through a windy country road. I was on my way to visit my sister with my DSLR camera in tow. Our plan was for me to practice portrait shots using my new 50 mm 1.8 f/s lens with her as my subject, and since I was still an hour and a half away, I called Stephie and asked if she knew of any blossoming cherry trees nearby for a chance of scenery. She didn't.
When I arrived, we drove around with our sights set upon finding the perfect setting. We found it serendipitously - in an almost-empty field at the local community college. It was perfect! A single tree with downy white petals bubbling around its dark branches, surrounded by emerald green grass and …

Creating Pockets of Adventures

Blessed. This is the perfect word to describe my life. While not everything goes in the direction I hope, nor does it ever happen in the ways I plan, it's mine and I have joy. More often than not, I face obstacles and sometimes rather painful experiences that I find to be overwhelming at times. All the same, I conquer. I have faith in a few things: a higher power, that higher power within me, and in myself. Faith always carries me through and has brought me to where I am.
I think my life to be somewhat average in many ways. I am not poor, but I am not wealthy. I can usually obtain the things I want if I plan for them and budget in most instances. However, I wasn't always affluent enough to afford small luxuries, such as my beloved Starbucks habit or my car. These two things would have exceeded my budget by far if I were 23-years-old again.  
Though, one thing that I am wealthy with is ambition. I've always been wealthy with ambition. If I want something, I find a way to m…

A Spring in My Steps

For those of you who have followed me for some time, you must know by now that one of my favorite spots here in Seattle is Green Lake. There's something so serene in walking the almost-three mile path around the lake - all while never even leaving the city. It's a short drive away and I find myself longing for a visit when I think only of its lush natural scenery and everything you could want in a park.
I went to Green Lake earlier in the day than normal and spotted these lovely little crocuses, reaching their aubergine-veined petals through the soil. I see them every year scattered about the city, but something about how they always reach for the sky makes them so relatable. 
Starting my walk, I noticed the eerie sky and how white it was with overcast - there were crows cawing and screeching from all over, fields and branches full of birds. My assumption is that after all the earthworms were about and crows were swarming to get a shot at their evening meal. 
Concluding my wa…